"Most of what followed seems like a nightmare still. I see it in my dreams sometimes… I'll hurry over that part. Mr. Danvers had told me to watch out. He might have been shadowed from New York, but he didn't think so. At first I had no suspicions, but on the boat to Holyhead I began to get uneasy. There was one woman who had been very keen to look after me,and chum up with me generally—a Mrs. Vandemeyer.At first I'd been only grateful to her for being so kind to me; but all the time I felt there was something about her I didn't like, and on the Irish boat I saw her talking to some queer-looking men, and from the way they looked I saw that they were talking about me. I remembered that she'd been quite near me on the Lusitania when Mr. Danvers gave me the packet,and before that she'd tried to talk to him once or twice.I began to get scared, but I didn't quite see what to do.